Hello, universe!
Let's pretend it has not been over eight months since my last update so let me fill you in with the latest details:
- Finally got legit signed at my current job after xx number of months so yay! Which means busier weekdays and often even busier weekends ahead.
- Visited El Nido for the first time last March <3 Finally ticked it off my bucket list.
- Wanderland 2018! Although not as good as 2017 in my opinion, but fun nonetheless.
- Broke up with the boyfriend for xxx months (heh, will get to it in a bit)
- AVENGERS: INFINITY WAR are you kidding me?! Watched it twice in the cinemas and still mind = blown
- Daughter duties. A business has been started and I'm just trying to help out in any way that I can. Will reveal once up and running ;)
- Mini family reunion - mom and grandma are here in the PH until the end of the month and we're just trying to spend as much time as we could together
- Lost yet another really good friend (or so I thought). And it can be harder to lose friendships than romantic relationships sometimes
I can't believe you're halfway done, but then again, there's still 6 months of you left. Somehow I have already managed to break my own heart countless times during the first half. (WTF, self) But hey, we're still here, right? 💪
So to get deeper into my heartbreak stories (don't you just love drama), let me share with you some notes and tips I have learned from my overly emotional encounters:
Walking away from someone you love will always be a million times more difficult than getting left behind.
I don't know if it's just because it's the first time I did it but I've had my fair share of being the one left behind that I somehow got used to the feeling. But to be brave enough to face the fact that something is no longer serving you even though it seems to be the best thing that ever happened to you; to realize and believe deep down that you deserve better - those are the most difficult things to act upon when you're in love. You know how much it hurts but you know you just got to do it. At the end of the day, you just always choose you.
There is no reset button for trust.
I mean, you may try. But it's true what they say that when it's broken, it can never go back to the way it was. It amazes me how some people manage to move on and get past something like, say, cheating, and be able to start again with a clean slate.
Everybody lies.
No matter how much you trust them or no matter how believable they may sound. It's just the way it is. Sometimes you think you've put on enough filters to sift through all the BS but somehow it still gets though to you. Don't overthink and don't overanalyze it. However, family - they almost always mean what they say so always keep them close. ❤️
DO NOT use other people in order to move on.
I suppose I don't need to tell you how big a recipe this is for disaster, yes? It's awful and unhealthy on so many levels so just don't. I mean, if you can't stand being alone for a month, can you stand being on your own at all?
It's been quite a roller coaster ride for me and there are moments where I feel like breaking down already. I guess it really gets tougher as we grow older. Silver lining - at least I can start writing here again! Hehe here's to progress and another post published.
PS. I just finished this awesomeeee book by Greg Behrendt and Liz Tuccillo after watching it and O M G I'm in love! Thank you, Lord, the universe, and mom and Mik for persuading me to give it a try on Netflix! x
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